What do I want the most!!!
I know what others want... they want my SEX... SEX... in the time and space of their convenience.
What about what I want? The togetherness, the mushy feeling, the possessiveness, the loving feeling... Why am I wanting this when I know its depleting from the world?
There are things I want to talk about at times. There are passions I want to experience. I feel like I'm missing a lot but at the same time don't want to venture for it too... I know you would if you could but you are not able to. I wish for so many things and keep wishing for it.
There are times when I want to break free cos I miss you and I know you will not be able to be there for me they way I want you to be.
You spoiled me into wanting all these things. Now I'm left there... wanting something that does not exist. I compromise and compromise more and more and I know its gonna just not the best thing for me.
The only problem with me is that when I want something so much, I would do anything. But I also have a threshold which will pull me back and make me not feel anymore. Not a phase I like. But it very much exists in me. I am trying and making sure I do not awaken that side of me.
May be I think too much. What is life and who cares what happens. Today its one person. Tomorrow its another. In such a world why do I want you so much and why do I want you to want me so much more... This insatiable want to only want you and knowing that you also are trying to break free from me is kinda hurting me inside. But I am too proud to share it with you.
No matter what I do, you want more... you want everyone else to want you as well... and want them perhaps...
Why am I not like that. I want to let go. I don't want to hold you to me if you want to explore yourself with others. But I'm not able to let go. I want you more and more. I don't want to loose this want I have for you. I know the moment I divert my attention, I can easily move away... But I don't want to.
Why is this want tormenting me so much!!! I will never tell you and you will never know.
May be you want me to also have a life away from you and you want the same. I do know that part is there. But I want you... and want you to want me... n only me! I know... that's the reason I can never tell you this. (It has got nothing to do with the other side of things. That I am clear about. Never ever.) But in this part of the world. I also want this to be natural and not something I say and so the want is there. For this reason, this shall never be spoken of... and it is the one thing that makes me cry... cos, I know I'm one of the many and never will be spoken of as the one you love... from the bottom of your heart!
I know what others want... they want my SEX... SEX... in the time and space of their convenience.
What about what I want? The togetherness, the mushy feeling, the possessiveness, the loving feeling... Why am I wanting this when I know its depleting from the world?
There are things I want to talk about at times. There are passions I want to experience. I feel like I'm missing a lot but at the same time don't want to venture for it too... I know you would if you could but you are not able to. I wish for so many things and keep wishing for it.
There are times when I want to break free cos I miss you and I know you will not be able to be there for me they way I want you to be.
You spoiled me into wanting all these things. Now I'm left there... wanting something that does not exist. I compromise and compromise more and more and I know its gonna just not the best thing for me.
The only problem with me is that when I want something so much, I would do anything. But I also have a threshold which will pull me back and make me not feel anymore. Not a phase I like. But it very much exists in me. I am trying and making sure I do not awaken that side of me.
May be I think too much. What is life and who cares what happens. Today its one person. Tomorrow its another. In such a world why do I want you so much and why do I want you to want me so much more... This insatiable want to only want you and knowing that you also are trying to break free from me is kinda hurting me inside. But I am too proud to share it with you.
No matter what I do, you want more... you want everyone else to want you as well... and want them perhaps...
Why am I not like that. I want to let go. I don't want to hold you to me if you want to explore yourself with others. But I'm not able to let go. I want you more and more. I don't want to loose this want I have for you. I know the moment I divert my attention, I can easily move away... But I don't want to.
Why is this want tormenting me so much!!! I will never tell you and you will never know.
May be you want me to also have a life away from you and you want the same. I do know that part is there. But I want you... and want you to want me... n only me! I know... that's the reason I can never tell you this. (It has got nothing to do with the other side of things. That I am clear about. Never ever.) But in this part of the world. I also want this to be natural and not something I say and so the want is there. For this reason, this shall never be spoken of... and it is the one thing that makes me cry... cos, I know I'm one of the many and never will be spoken of as the one you love... from the bottom of your heart!
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